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oct 20 - reminisce

it is the last day of class. my sem is now officially over! :) i can now have enough(?) sleep and do whatever i want. yehey! free at last!

i had my last exam today for econ 121. for 3 years that i've been in econ, it was the first time that i took a final exam that is not required. i thought the test would be very hard since it will cover 20 chapters but guess what?! it was 15 mins of heaven. hahahaha! plus i got to see **** before the sem ends because he took the finals as well :) lucky me!

hmm.. wouldnt it be wierd if someone you've just met will ask you to have a picture together??
-- just a thought.

later today, i decided to walk around the acad oval, then i remembered some things that shouldnt be remembered. it is batter that way. another flashback came to me, it was an event that im thankful of. that was a night event 3 years ago. all smiles. :)

i missed blogging. this site was empty for more than a month.. ill start my kwento here. :)

Oct 19 - "go go go! makakajackpot k rin!"

...sana nga!

kasi naman pakiramdam ko sobrang nahihirapan ako and parang wala naman nangyayaring matino sa akin. pinipilit kong mag-aral for 121 finals, but i just felt that i wasnt doing enough.

tito brian and tita aileen, the newly weds, came to visit us and greet mom belated. ang dami nilang kwentospecially about their 1st week together then nauwi sa mga kwento ng kung sinu-sino at anu-ano. chismisan to the max oh! bonding ulit kami ni tito brian. wew watched muymuypalaboy sa you tube just to kill time. sila yung mga taong walang magawa at walang ginagawa pero sumisikat at yumayaman! swertihan lang tlga!

Oct 18- spammer spammer

i got a new role to portray now.. "Spammer" galing to kay joms (bully! haha). spammer na nga ako dahil sa dami ng text brig na kailangan kong gawin sa loob n g isang araw. sulit na sulit ang unli and if ever na nakakalakad lang ang fone ko, iniwasan na cguro ako nito. pagkagising pa lang nagttext na ako hanggang sa pagtulog tutunog pa ung fone ko. kung productive na maiituring ang texting, napaka productive kong tao today..

Oct 17- trade off

it's mama's birthday! happy birthday! :)

my brother did the poster


the 121 grades were out today. i'm exempted but i decided to take the finals. i've concentrated too much on econ 131 and i almost forgot that i also have a 121 class plus the fact that every time an exam will be scheduled for this, i also have another 2 exam the day before and a 131 exam the same day or maybe a BA141 case presentation. oh well!

later this day, i bumped into my former up touch rugby team mate. "former" because i've quit on the team because acads was too demanding and i have obem but honestly, i really miss touch rugby. i miss playing. i miss the game. she told me that i shoudnt have left the team and spend my sembreak with them in singapore. ok again... SINGAPORE! i have passed my second year second sem subjects and i am the new director for finance in obem and i missed a number of tournaments and i will be missing a big one in Singapore. haay..

Oct 16- "deleberi"

nakakagulat si kuya delivery boy nung kumatok siya sa pinto. hindi ako dapat magulat kasi alam ko naman na may delivery akong inaantay pero nagulat ako kasi hindi ko alam kung kelan ba darating.

nag-bum lang ako today sa bahay, past 1 na wala pa akong ginagawa. nasa harap lang ako ng pc.. then biglang nagtext c jeme. asking kung pwede ba ako ng 4 pm.. nagulat naman ako eh kc nawala sa utak ko na magkikita nga pla kami if ever na pwede xa. at ayan na. mejo nagpanic na ako kasi 2pm na un eh.. hehe.

at last nagkita na ulit kami! bread talk + dq! at mahabahabang kwentuhan! window shopping again. may isa lang kaming hindi nagawa! umuwi ng sabay! pero okay lang madami pang next time. sobrang namiss ko nga c jeme! :)



Oct 13-14- two days of riding the roller coaster

monday is when the exemption for math 2 was released. thank God! but i still got a long way to go.

it was also our final exam for econ 131, we met Chito, the checker, our saving grace! haha.. but the exam was really exhausting. no exemption for us this time.

and tuesday was the exam for BA 101 under sir zarco. i slept from 9pm to past 12, then i studied all the way upto 3am.. and then i cant sleep.. oh no! i should sleep. i must sleep! but i failed. i went to the exam zombified. but inspired again. hahaha!

Oct 12 - babay

it's lola's 78th birthday today! happy birthday po! (as if she will be able to read this eh noh?!)

i left a friend today. kung titingnan para akong nang-iwan sa ere. but i think he deserve it. after today, no more bestfriend for you. no more savior. no more me. no more him. promise!

today is officially my first working day as an internals committee member. honestly, nataranta ako. nagstart nung nagtext c faye welcoming the fin mems and congratulating me as their director. tpos ayan na c lourd with her super long message of the committee assignment. then came some things to do. out of the 3 things to do, 2 has something to do with me. waah! nagpapanic n ako.. hindi ako prepared. wala nga ako load eh. but everything went well naman. i was texting the whole night ata. haha. it was fun! :)

Oct 7-8 the last two days

i had two exams for tuesday..math 2 and art stud 2 plus a surprise good morning quiz from sir zarco! whew! the execomm called for a special genmeet.. where they gave away free oheya, tempura and cupcakes to the members!

wednesday was the official last day of classes. i had an exam in econ 121.. and i've seen **** again. ayee... inspired!



Oct 4- bowl and dine

...with the fin hot mems in east wood.

it was a well deserved bonding after all the hard and stressful work.

it's me. my first time. haha.

faye.ej.chi.jay.nikko.zel.joms.

dine at serye

fin=fun <3

Oct 3- a super long day

today's the release of breakeven's last issue for first sem. and i think it was a good one now. today is also election day in OBEM. nervous. afraid. hoping...

the night was for Obem's execellence awards led by the acads committee. it was fun filled. full of awards and the winners for the elections was announced! yee...

internals committee for 2nd sem 08-09
malour.nice.zel.joyce.jules.irene. jay(missing)

:)

i also got my first ever OBEM award! thank you! yes it's my very first!

Oct 2 - judgement day

today was our convocation to be an internals committee member. yay! it was a very long day too. i have a reporting for art stud 2 and i have to start the printing for breakeven. and at 4pm was the convoc. it lasted up to 7pm.. answering the questions of obemers and proving them you are sincere and you deserve the spot.

sept 29- where it all started

a year ago, we were there.. i met you there. everything started there. but now, it was nothing. it shouldnt be remembered anyway.

sept 24 - vantage point

to much to say.. it's a success. one thing i've learned. it's enough to say that an event was a success not because of the profits but because of the members's smile and satisfaction.





a great sem indeed.
another sem ends.. and another will start. but it's still early.. rest muna! hahaha! :)

when it rains...

...it Fours.and fours hard.

sabi nila ang blessing daw kapag dumating sunod-sunod. at meron ding version na ang kamalasan daw kapag dumating sunod-sunod din! i can say it's true. well, it happened to me last friday, september 12, which is technically september 11 sa US. i dont know if it was just the date or it's just that it is not my day or one of my not-so-lucky day. i dont know. all i know is that IT SUCKS! CRAP!

i just discovered that it was someone's "happy" day and not mine of course! it hurts to know that. so i slept with bitterness. and then i woke up with a very pleasant text message "i'm sorry but we will cancel..." good morning. and because of this, someone started to panic and called for an emergency meeting with those in the position and explain ourselves. so i end up crying, thinking what went wrong, or is it my fault or what are the things that i should've done but i did not. tulala. then came an econ subject, with the release of the exam that was very hard.. and the result. sigh. then came the nerve wracking meeting. eto lang: nakakatakot sila. and lourd talked to me that made the tears fall hard. jeme wasnt able to go see me. sayang. i need my laptop. oh sh*t! power search? i dont know. one thing for sure. it doesnt want to open. all my files are in there. it's half of my life. tulala again. the only thing i got normally functioning was my cell phone. and at the middle of an important conversation with a tie up, low batt. i transferred the sim to another phone. low batt din. may lovers din na nag-aaway nung araw n un. muntik madapa c joms dahil sa akin, muntik din c topher. hinatid na lang ako ni io pauwi. buti wala nang nangyri.

hindi naman ako naligo ng malas sa araw na yon noh?! ewan ko ba.. ayokong sisihin ang petsang yun. ayoko na lang din idikit sa mga pangyayari ng nakaraan. pero ano ang dahilan ng lahat ng nangyari sa araw na iyon? trials Niya. pero bakit naman po ganun kalupit sa loob pa ng isang araw? madami pa namang araw ah?! hahahahahaha! pilosopo lang po.. senxa na.

::nasa pag-iisip ng tao. kung ano man ang iniisip natin ay siyang maaaring mangyari. dahil inisip natin, ginusto natin iyon..

flight

...fly!

obem <3
(thanks to ate dar for the pic)

i attended the leadership training seminar yesterday that was facilitated by ACT, a group of friends that conduct leadership seminar for free to some schools. i have been very tired and stressed for the past few days but there were no regrets in waking up early on a saturday to attend a whole day seminar. through the seminar and the activities that they prepared for us, i've picked up a lot of things about myself, my friends and my orgmates. one of the activity was named as "the flight" and it was done to point out that in a team, there are times that you have to be the leader but there also times that you have to be a follower. that being in a team, you must work in a give and take relationship for the team to fly. it is always a compromise. we always have our strengths to be used to support other people's weakness and we have our own failures and flaws wherein our teammate must stood up for us. again, everything is a compromise. i teach you, you teach me. it is also an issue of trust. you cant see, im incapacitated. listen to me and you'll be safe. trust. thanks to my partner in that activity. :)

it was also a day where i was exposed to some things that can make or more of break me. it's something that almost stop the momentum i was in. it sucks. it's damn frustrating! i just felt that i'm still not enough. and that questioned the reason why i am doing some things. it also put a period to a long been asked question. the answer: most probably no! not now. and from there, i started questioning myself again, when...? why...? can i do it now? what will i do? how...?i know that my decision will disappoint someone but i have my reasons... and everything will be in His time. maybe there's someone more deserving than i am...that's why.

bakit natatakot lumipad ang sisiw? bakit mahirap para sa kanyang lumipad sa unang pagkakataon kahit na alam niyang may pakpak at makakalipad siya? marahil, ito ay dahil sa oras na lumipad siya maari na siyang mahulog, masaktan at hindi na makabangon pa...

half way..

..there.

half way my hell week. half way to the end of this hell semester. half way fixing a life.

thank God that i'm halfway to the end of this one hell of a sem... buti na lang umabot pa ako sa kalahati. and i think.. it's so far so good.. not until the results of all my exams slap on my face. (wag naman sana) kalahati pa lang exhausted na ako.. the past few days nga feeling ko zombie na lang ako, binubuhay ng coffee at chocolates.. and lagi na lang akong may sakit. pati ata pagiging late ay naging sakit ko din for the week that was. kaya sana gumaling na ako sa sakit na yan...nakamamatay!

half way the past week nasabi ko lang bigla: "ang hirap maging tao at ang hirap magpanggap bilang isang masipag at matalinong tao!" hahahaha! oo nasabi ko talaga yan dahil sobrang frustrated at stressed na ako...nagbreak down din ako! at hindi ko alam kung bakit, i just felt sooo tired and feeling ko ung stress level ko ay somewhere up up up there! so ayun nag break down n lang ako..and to make my self feel better, i texted jeme. kahit isang text lang ok na! namiss ko lang :)

im just half way fixing my life but then it's mixing up again..alam kong may nagtatampo sa akin dahil sa ginagawa ko but still i MUST value my self more than any thing else so maybe.. ill put you at the end of my "to fix" list. for now, all i can do is to be an isnabera. (here comes my brat side! but i love it!)

no room for giving up
ill cross the finish line. :)

it ends here.

i guess my "summer fun" ends here..my supposedly last summer trip to batangas with the team building class today was canceled for the weather forbids.. and tada! a trip wasted leaving excited students bored and hanging.

my summer ends here to be followed by a two or three bummer and dvd marathon weeks..or maybe a chance for me to save up for months of sleepless nights and stressful days coming up..

summer is officially over for me and it's the start of boredom and dull rainy days.. :(

..which results to a number of whatever lists...

must-haves and must-dos before classes starts..

• 10 or more hours of sleep everyday
• supeerrr clean my room again
• SHOPPING! SHOPPING! SHOPPING!
• a day with friends!! please...
  
• see iron man in the movie house
• visit a salon
• see a beach..though it's now rainy...
• a bonding with my team building class
• get a new battery for my laptop
• go out and drive out of town...
  
• to learn the guitar again..seriously this time..

on a more serious note..i often read and hear stories of people talking about their existence and them making the best out of their existence..so out of the blue..i just asked myself..why is it that it seems that i don't really know what to do with myself, why is it that i cant see my self in the future...

why do i exist?

• to TRAVEL
• feel
• be strong for other people's weakness
  
• save humankind from its extinction--reproduce! hahaha...
• be an angel to someone
• create friendships
• love
• add to my parents' burden
• serve the real purpose why i exist..sad but still i don't know what it is....

and now, what do i want?

• visit all the places on earth
• get a high paying job or a rich-high-earning husband (hahaha)
• have my own restaurant and be the master chef
• learn photography
• backpacking
• publish a book before i die
• be with someone
• play touch rugby again, learn tennis, gymnastics, pilates, wake boarding and surfing
• be called an athlete
• fly a kite
• become a drifter
• make my parents proud and get them up the stage to hand me my medal
• receive an extra-ordinary wedding proposal (but not necessarily get married..hahaha)
• dance in the rain with someone
• stargaze

too much for the list...this is the result of a saturday afternoon boredom inside the house.....tsk tsk..

akala nyo nagbibiro ako ah..

hahahaha!!! everybody thought that i was joking nung cnabi kong "ill bring the car today" kaya cneryoso ko talaga..dinala ko nga ung car...then when im finally in UP...i texted my mom and let her know na dala ko nga ung car...tawagan b naman daw ako sa cell phone and panic! haha..

well, nagddrive naman na talaga ako ever since i turned 18..pero i always make sure that someone who knows to drive is with me..mejo mabigat kc ung car ni dad kaya im afraid na bka mabangga ko un..kaya cguro hindi ako cneryoso ni mama and ng mga kapatid ko nung cnabi kong "ill bring the car today"..hahaha..

achievement toh..mejo na at ease na din ako to drive alone..hehe :)

naki ride pa ung team building classmates ko...my first ever passengers... yey!! :)

29

...just realized...

...six months na din pla..

He gives time.

i thought time was never enough these days..

but He does make a way..

but there are some things to be given away..

like..

one day from the one week left for me..most specially a tuesday.

well, what's with tuesday anyway?

indifferent but thankful, I aM.

see you...

...on summer.

=s

death MARCH.

i was praying that february will never be over...
but that's the reality of life..another page in the calendars have to be ripped off..

MARCH na!

reasons why ayoko mag- march..

• mamamatay ako sa dami ng dapat gawing acad stuff.. exams, requirements, projects and exams exams exams...
• at dahil dyan.. sleep deprived na naman ako.
• hindi rin maganda ang sked ng holy week...pano kasi..after exam ay finals weeek..so how will i be able to go somewhere and enjoy the holy week? how will i be able to have our usual holy week customs if i really badly have to study for two crucial exam??
• kinakabahan din ako sa mgging result ng sem na ito..
• kpag march na, to follow na ang april..ayaw! know why??
• another sem to end..bye bye to the people i met and had fun this sem..
• another school year to end..sh*t! ayoko pang mag 3rd year...
• i'm 99% sure na hindi ko mkikita ang ilang tao..hmmm..
• and i'm 75% sure that this might be the last sem that we'll have lunch together.. and that u'll have a new world after this...there were a lot of things that happened in less than a month so what more in two months?! but i think..it will be for my good na din????

pero xempre...there are more happy things for me to look forward to this march...

:)

horoscope.

i dont really read horoscopes..but because there's nothing new in my friendster site and i am so sleepy..i just clicked on my horoscope for today..and here it goes:

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
The Bottom Line
The pace of your life has been far too fast for far too long. You must rest today.
In Detail
The journey you have been on has been quite a challenging one, so you'll breathe a sigh of relief today when you come across a person who offers you a chance to rest your weary feet for a while. The pace of your life has been far too fast for far too long, and they have an invitation you should not pass up. You'll be much happier when you can see things while you're standing still -- not when they're whizzing by as you run at a million miles an hour.


...and ok! it seems that i am always running out of time for the past 2 or 3 weeks..everything's so fast for me..and it's true that i am so damn tired! and i've been wanting some rest.. but still I CANT REST TODAY! how the hell will i rest today?! and who's that "someone who will offer me the chance to rest my weary feet for a while"?!! waah..i need that someone..

two more to go..and i'll get rest and that most awaited sleep! and i'll get out of my caffeinated hell weeks. yeah!!