"Its like rain on your wedding day
Its a free ride when youve already paid
Its the good advice that you just didnt take
Who wouldve thought... it figures.
-Ironic-
all along we feel that things are on their perfect places but then suddenly, life surprises us! then we end up asking "bakit ganito? why at this time pa? akala ko ba okay na?" ewan.
my summer wasn’t a perfect one as it may seem. On dad's last day here, after a long time, I witnessed a fight. My parents fought over something so stupid and they ended up not talking. Frustration came to me. I thought things are okay the whole time that dad's here. All the perfect moments was gone and the worse thing, I can’t understand why that happened and who to blame in destoying my perfect summer. The saddest part, I just kept it all with me and show them that I don’t care. Constantly thinking that im not affected. IM NOT.... i am.
may mga bagay din na hindi ganon kadali makuha kahit akala natin kaya naman. marami daw namamatay sa maling akala, muntik na cguro ako… ang tigas kasi ng ulo ko eh. akala ko kasi pumayag na si mom eh. so ayan, when i got this nice package, bumaliktad ang inaakala kong tahimik n linggo kasama nanay ko. kung pwede lang akong magpalamon s lupa, malamang ginawa ko na. pero umiral ang lawyer-slash-actress me. hindi ako nagpasindak sa nanay ko. as if im not affected. as if i dont hear anything because i kept thinking: i have my reasons why i ask for this package and my reasons are, of course, sensible. so tama ako and i know that i deserve this!
but the guilt never left me. the feeling that i've hurt my mom again (for the nth time) because of my silly decisions. The disappointment I’ve caused her. So this is where I feel ashamed of myself.
But what can I do right? The damage has been done.
no replays. no reverse.no turning back.
i just have to accept, be firm and try to make the next a perfect or the right one, at least.
SMILE :)
