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there are just certain things that are better off unknown. things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard and sometimes never even felt....

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oh yes.. at last nakapag post din. wierd kasi everyday i go online but i dont really have the luxury of time to post here. well its because i have a toxic life now...

updates/kwento/points learned:

1.) two weeks na akong gumagawa ng case.. everyday ako umuuwi ng 830-9 pm for two consecutive weeks now. this is why my life is toxic. nakaka-exhaust talaga. it is stressful but honestly, im loving my ba141 because of this cases. minsan nga pakiramdam ko adik na ako eh.yaaakkk!

2.) third presenting group kami sa ba 141.. last wednesday dapat nag report na kami at nagpaterrorize sa aming prof.. pero hindi nya kami sinipot last wednesday so na move kami last friday... but for the second time around! no signs of sir Pineda! arrrggghh.. nakakawalang gana talaga! nakakainis ung feeling na kinakabahan ka para sa wala plus the fact pa na naka corporate attire kami.. hassle un! it's not fun to wake up earlier than you should be because you just have to go to school early and prepare for nothing! that's BS! :(

3.) i am tired! as in PAGOD! to the point na hindi na ako nagigising in time for my first class.. which is not so me.. oh Lord! help me with this.. it very unusual of me to be absent dahil lang sa hindi ako nagising..at sana din hindi pasaway ang fone ko :(

4.) im okay now, i guess, pero minsan dinadalaw ako ng sumpong and feel sad but that happens sometimes na lang kaya i think okay na din ako. besides hindi na din naman siya naka permanently offline sa ym ko eh and we now talk the normal way..so maybe im okay now.two facts remains unchanged... miss ko na siya at magaling talaga siya sa timing.he knows when i need him.

5.) having a boyfriend/girlfriend is like having additional 6 units in your work load as a college student.

6.) people who are not in a relationship becomes workaholic because they dont have anyone to give their time to so they use all of their time being productive

7.) i am a workaholic. and now i am asking myself: is it better to have additional 6 units or just be a workaholic? hmmm...

8.) a body at rest remains at rest until a force acts on it. ;) -> a very important lesson learned!

9.) there are some things or people that will not always stay beside you. but can be back beside you sometimes..when you are a friend.

10.) lahat tayo ay makakahanap ng mga katapat natin. mga taong makakapagpatigil sa atin kung hindi kaya ng iba. mga taong gagawin kang tanga kahit anong talino mo pa. mga taong maiituring mong karma. kanya kanyang oras lang yan.

11.) i hate to see a strong lady drop on her knees and cry for a guy. and i then realized how i looked like when i did that pero buti na lang i did that when im alone. i totally feel for you girl, i understand. there's just one thing i dont. pero akin na lang yun to figure out.

12.) ang hina ko pala pumick up ng mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. i thought everything was okay pero hindi pala. im sorry.

13.) i am a loner at times and i do love to walk.. :)

14.) i miss high school and friends. :(

15.) im pissed! hindi ka ba naman mainitindihan ng nanay mo eh?! hindi ko naman ginusto na umuwi ng late for two weeks. at almost a month na kaming hindi in good terms.. but as promised to my dad, ill fix this given the time. :(

16.) tumatakaw na naman ako! tsk.. at nabubuhay ako dahil sa chocolate... baaaaddd!

17.) i have tendencies to oversleep! and it ruins my life! huhuhu.. baaaadddd agen! :-s

18.) loser ako dahil ang tagal ko nang hindi nakakapunta ng mall :( i miss shopping!

18.) panira talaga ng buhay ang academics! dahil kasi jan hindi matutuloy ang hongkong trip ko this august! sh*t naman oh!

19.) white corporate tops are must haves and investments for business students... another loser me! eh kasi naman.. all my corporate tops are pink!

20.) the feeling was once mutual. but it was never of equal weight. :'( unfair pa rin! haha!

buti na lang may blog to let everything out especially at times na wala kang makausap kasi busy sila sa ibang bagay or ibang tao. :(
sa makakabasa: salamat kasi para ka na ring nakinig sakin. :)

"ang bulag nga meron eh..

...ako wala!"

i just remembered this line kanina.. someone said this to me months ago, pertaining to the love life topic.

i said this line to myself while i was walking alone and then i secretly laughed. i laughed because i realized that life was really playful and funny. isnt it ironic that those who cant see the world have a happy love life and us who are completely well have none? kung sino pa ang may maayos at malinaw na mata, at nakikita ang katotohanan ay siya pang mga single sa mundo?... nakakatawa di ba? natatawa din ako dahil totoo ang statement, mabuti pa ang bulag may significant other..ako zero! yun ba ang kapalit dahil nakakakita ako?..kung oo, uhm.. cge okay na rin! isa sa fears ko ay ang mabulag dahil takot ako sa dilim... pero kung pwede kahit isang araw, mabubulag ako.. i guess, ill grab the chance..why not? at least ma-eexperience ko ang feeling...

but seriously, i think the answer to that statement is: kasi kapag bulag ang isang tao, mas malakas ang ibang senses niya kaya mas malakas ang pakiramdam nila so they wont miss out those feelings like being love and the fact pa that being blind disables you to see the imperfections of people and what really matters is what you feel. oha! oha!

dun naman sa nagsabi nito sa akin: alam ko ang sagot kung bakit ikaw wala.. hindi ka nga bulag, maliit lang ang mata mo pero nakakakita ka, pero ikaw ay isa't kalahating pipi at lima't kalahating duwag! hahaha!

at ako: isa't kalahati ding pipi at isa't kalahating t@ng@! too bad... but it's okay...

hahahaha!

kung ayaw...

..eh di wag!

madali akong kausap..and besides i got a lot more important things to do than push myself to something that will not work for me..