still

just today.. i cant look at him directly..

i ate my breakfast quietly but he still tried to share what happened to him yesterday..

i left for school quietly but he still bid bye bye..

i dont want to go home early but still he waited..

i kept quiet and pretend but still he kissed me and left...

he left again..but still i didnt grab the chance to say something..

"take care..we'll miss you"

im still weak at goodbyes.. i hate it..

different

we went to see manila ocean adventure park today..and even though i am so tired..i didnt take any minute thinking if i have to get up from bed or not..haha..the place was great..though it was not what i expected or maybe i expected more.. but i can say that it as an enjoyable experience... :)

this picture was taken inside the souvenir shop in the ocean park..it was used for the 3d picture package that the shop was offering for 400php.. there was something different with the picture..i just dont know why..i just felt something different.. we decided to get a soft copy from the photographer because the five of us wanted to have a copy of it in our own phones...hehe..

almost everything has changed..the way things run and the way we look at things inside this "family" and things will never be the same again..we tried but we always fail or sometimes when we push things harder it just gets worse..small things like this picture are is a big part of the change, i guess..i never experienced something like this when we all stayed under one roof.. and sometimes because of those changes, conflicts arise that just passes by and ends without closure.. everyone, i think, have recovered and have accepted the way things are though it was never easy, sometimes awkward and we have to be thankful even of small things like this "family portrait".. haha.

"family portrait"

--how ironic?! ;)

dark side?

elma asked me why do i maintain two blogs and had one secret from my friends..

at mejo na bother ako sa sinabi ko about me having a dark side?! feeling ko mali toh.. tpos nag react pa ung class...haha...

ako may dark side? cguro nga...

then i read some of my posts in that secret blog...tpos na realize ko na exaggerated nga ung term na nagamit ko..hindi naman dark side...it's more of my negative and sad side..mga bagay na hindi ko tlga msabi sa ilang tao..nrealize ko din na mxado nga tlga akong reserve...

got to change it i guess..